Today is an important day for me. Today is my 2 year “cancerversary”. I’ve been thinking about this day for the
last couple of weeks and have been reflecting on the past two years since I was
diagnosed. Frankly speaking, I think about cancer a lot. I know I shouldn’t, but I do. I guess when you are told “you have cancer” it
can kind of rattle a person. That said,
I am beyond thankful about how lucky I was and am. I have some friends currently fighting the
fight to become cancer free and while it sucks, I’m also happy to say they are
winning that fight! Separately, another
friend lost her fight this year. Her
kids are the same age as Keaton and Casen and I’m heartbroken for those little
ones who will grow up having lost their mom.
Life isn’t fair and sometimes it just really really sucks.
When the topic of my cancer comes up, Scott always makes me
laugh which I love. He calls 2010 “the year you tried to die” because of the cancer but also
because of Channing’s birth and how the doctors said “you were in real trouble
there for a while”. I guess my goal for
this coming year is to try not to die (just trying to make my husband proud!). Really, it's the least I can do.
In terms of health, all things remain the same. From what I know, I’m cancer free and plan to
stay that way. This past year I did participate in a genetics study run by the
UW School of Medicine in which they are studying breast cancer in young women
(diagnosed under 40). They study genes
for the two main genetic defects known to be associated with breast cancer
(BRCA 1 & BRCA 2) and a whole host of other genes. I got my results back just a few weeks ago and
I’m negative! This is great news
particularly for my worrying about my kids and their future. I see my cancer doctor in another month or so
where I’ll ask for the millionth time if I should be doing anything (blood
tests, scans, etc) just to check once more and I’m sure she’ll tell me again
that I don’t need any of that. So then I
just sit and worry from time to time.
Apparently that is the norm.
I can’t end this blog post without recognizing two other
major events this year that affected the health of family members. This spring, Carol suffered a brain aneurism
and a stroke and she continues to work on her recovery. She’s really doing great, but the road is
difficult. Second is my youngest nephew
Garak who is one of the toughest kids around.
He’s been holding on to life now longer than anyone expected and is getting
in all the snuggles and loves from family and friends that he can. He’s a complete sweetheart and we love him
very much.
I hope I don’t have any reason to write in this blog until
next year. So make sure and do monthly
self-exams, donate to great cancer related charities and stay healthy! Love & hugs!
Becky
